This is my chance to say whatever the hell I want, and my chance to complain about all the bullshit I go through everyday. Daily bitchiness: Why the hell do people with huge asses think they can squeeze into a seat on the train not even big enough to hold your purse???? I HATE THAT!!

MONEY MAY GET EVEN TIGHTER...
I'm here right now at work feeling like shit (headache, blurry vision and hungry) but masking it like a million other people do at work just to get through the day. A good ass 80's song came on right now on the radio I don't know who sings it but it goes, "hey now, hey now, don't dream it's over". I love 80's music. It's all my mami's fault. She is a 80's freak at heart. She listened to every kind of music back then and I now have a zillion 80's songs stuck in my head. They bring me good memories though.

Well the job I have is temporary and the end date is coming closer and closer. I am waiting to find out if they will keep me permanently. Pray for me yall. I need the money fo real. I really like my job. I work in my school which makes it so easy to just work and go to school at the same place and the people are really nice. The only jobs I've had have been mostly shit because of the people I've worked with.I've been an assistant teacher in a daycare, banknotes clerk in a major bank headquarters(the best pay so far) and administrative assistants at different companies. Im getting bored of doing the office thing but it's the easiest thing and I think I'm pretty good at it. My boss is trying to get the people in personnel to approve me. She even asked me to pray. She's really nice, the best boss I've had by far but that may be 'cause I helped her with everything that I possibly could. She's new at her position and not used to being in charge yet but I'm trying to help her along the way. Well I know whatever I turn out to be I want to be the best at it and in a top possition. Why not ya know? Why shouldn't I shot for something tht has status behind it? I don't know of many latinas that are CEO's or VP's of companies....can't you just see it now...."Cillastar's Latina Lounge Inc. Co." That sounds nice eh?

posted by Mizz Cillastar at 5:09 PM

MONEY'S TIGHT BUT FLOWERS CAN BRIGHTEN THINGS UP...
So yea the rent is due soon and we don't have shit in the bank account (well just enough to cover the rent) but it's all good cuz school's almost here which means money will soon be back in my pocket. Yo...speaking of school...this sweetheart of a guy gave me FLOWERS at my job today. I was in shock, these things never happen to me. I was on the phone when I bouquet of flowers appeared out of nowhere. He was hiding and then appeared. The story with him is I helped him get some credits transfered to his new college that he's going to. They needed the credits to approve him for a basketball scholarship (bling bling...in the future I hope). He's a cutie and boriqua ~applause~. Well I gave him my email address, yea it's nerdy but remember...I live with my man and that guy's going to IOWA lol. There's no chance of anything but a booty call (which I may not object to). Ok ok I'll stop the sluttyness, but It really made my day.

Have you heard about that "sircam" worm virus going around? I call it the "hi, how are you?" bug. You get an email message with that as the subject and some stupid shit in the message (it also comes itn spanish) with a large as attachment, about 250k. Delete that shit as soon as you get it. Someone sent it to me in spanish. Thank GOD I knew what it was. I think the virus copies your files and sends them out to everyone on the net and can make your system crash. Get more info here. Beware peoples...
posted by Mizz Cillastar at 11:11 PM

DAMM I LOOK LIKE A TOMATO!
Hey peoples, Well I went to Orchard Beach for the second time this summer. I like it there alot. I got hella BURNT but its ok cuz I'll turn brown in like a day. There was this gigolo looking guy with a tight black speedo walking up and down the beach passing out cards to woman (with no men) saying that he dances and charges like $130 an hour. HAHAHA. I was dying! He had a big ass schlong that was poking right out of that skinny bathing suit but I was trying not to look cuz I was with my man. This woman was telling him he should be ashamed of himself cuz there were children there! I'd pay $130 just to see his thingy up close swinging in the wind! hehe

Anywayz...Has anyone gone to any concerts or festivals? I haven't seen any yet and if anyone knows of any good festivals in NYC or good shows let me know. Also, has anyone got a letter from the IRS saying they're getting a refund like Prez Bush is promising? My man just got his and he's happy cuz he'll go shopping with it. I haven't gotten any yet :( but I should get something I filed taxes and all. The summer is going sooooo fast :( I feel like I'm missing it because of work but hey, we need money to do things right? I'm gonna finally get another copy of my permit (too lazy to get the license) so I can get into bars and clubs without begging the bouncers. I plan on hitting up the bars on Avenue A in the village which is near where I used to live. I start school again in almost three weeks now and I feel like I have to rush and get as much fun shit in before it's over!
posted by Mizz Cillastar at 11:07 PM

This poor girl.

I know everyone is talking about this poor girl but I just had one comment on her. I feel bad that know one is giving her any sympathy. She seems like she need some help or some counseling. It was a sad attempt on her own life but that was a typical cry for help. I've seem alot of sites that posted her pick and made fun of her but damm can we try and show alittle compassion? I can do what every other webmaster is doing and dog the shit out of her but I choose the high path. I'm not going to even plug her site because that's what she may have wanted in the first place but there is an article on lycos about her. That's it for now...
posted by Mizz Cillastar at 3:24 PM

I TOLD you the bathroom is THAT way!!!
Well it was a typical work day...the usual clueless students asking the same azz questions. Why do freshmen act so dizzy? I didn't act like that (at least I don't think so).
I remember that I did everything the first time around without bitching and complaining even though it was like a day before classes were supposed to start. And the worst thing is when the have the nerve to act like it's my duty to guide them through the whole process of registering and financial aid and blah blah blah. I don't give a shit about your simple, easy to remedy problems. All I can do is direct you in the right direction. I work in the health education department of the school and I guess there is some secret writing on the door that says, "All your problems will be solved here...cilla is the alpha and omega of answering questions..please go bother her while she is eating something really greasy so you can embarrass her".

I went to the cutest site called ya-horror.com thanx to a girl I know...(sup christina!). It's a part of yahoo.com. I'm not a real road rules freak but I saw today's episode. They have this latina chick who insists on acting like a chicken. Wuz up with that? Why can't she act intelligent and civil so we don't get worse of a rap as being dizty and slutty. I can't stand chickens. I wish they would all fly off this earth on a big dildo. lol. Well I think it's time for bed, I need to get to work an hour earlier just to do some bullshit that is not really my problem. I can't wait to go back to school!
posted by Mizz Cillastar at 12:09 AM

Aww damm...pass me the tissue!
hello hello. Well today was a good day. I went to eat and see a movie with my man, something that is getting rare because of the overtime he's doing. We saw Dr. Dolittle which was ok but not as funny as I thought it was gonig to be, just like Scary Movie 2. I thought SM2 was trying alittle to hard to get a laugh out of us. It was basic "anyone can get this" humor which I'm not really into. I like the jokes that you have to think about. I think it's more satisfying. Funniest part of SM2, Shawn Wayans scene~"What do you guys think, In or out?". If you saw it, ya know what I mean. Well school is almost here and I'm getting prepared mentally. I'm kinda happy cuz my refund checks from school should be here soon ;). I get to blow alittle money on clothes and shit. I like school when I'm on top of shit which is most of the time but when I'm slacking off I get stressed...I guess like every other college student.

To all the chicas (guys cover your eyes)...does anyone besides me get the shits right before your period? Don't laugh :)...I don't know...maybe it's just me or the raisin bran I eat all the time. I got it when I was in the movie. I couldn't even concentrate on the movie! OK GUYS you we all can continue.

Well I just have to include some sites that I have seen that had me dying at like 2 in the morning. Chickenlegs.net has me dying with the crazy ass pictures they have, Resha of talkinshit.com has me rolling with her demented truthfullness and Christopher is a cute ass niggarican at headshotz.org. Cop the Alicia Keys album for all you fellow R&B fiends. I love this girl.
posted by Mizz Cillastar at 2:08 AM

Natalie, you can do BETTER!
Well, the post I put before this was done at around 4 in the morning. I dont' know why but for like a week I've been going to sleep late. There is nothing really important keeping me up but then again maybe who knows. Well it's 3:30 and I'm waiting for my hunny to come home. I don't work on Fridays and waste it at home cleaning, working on the PC and watching TV. I don't really watch TV, only when there's nothing exciting to do. I'm trying to get back into painting and sketching. I have all my supplies right in the livingroom where I can see them but seem to avoid them. Tomorrow I''m going to City Island for the first time to a restaurant with my booboo. I need ot get my ID so we can actually go to a club or bar, which I want ot do so bad. I haven't been to a club in years. My sis is begging me to try and get her an apartment where I live. I hate her stankass boyfriend. He is a fucking loser with no intelligence. He sells drugs to get cash and I tell her to get the hell away from him before she goes down with him too. She tells me they live in a shitty one-bedroom apartment in a bad area uptown. The only reason they moved up there is because the rent is hella cheap. I will try my best to get her out of that hellhole (which me or my mom have'nt seen yet). Aight time ot get off my ass and clean this dirty house and cook something. What do you think...hamburgers or spaghetti?

posted by Mizz Cillastar at 3:53 PM

So you want to stalk me huh, here ya go...
Hey well this is my chance to put whatever the hell I want to. Expect me to write about my past experiences, present dilemmas, and future aspirations. Oh yea...if you want to spit out your thoughts on this blog, just email me and I'll consider granting you access to this journal. Well here I go....

Well I'm a 22 years old boriqua woman who is getting her education on the goverment's tab. I just moved into my own apartment with my boyfriend (who is watching "Martin" in his boxers) and my two cat's that are one years old (suga & spicey). I went through mad shit just to get alittle space on this earth and am happy with everything I have. I'll explain the HELL I went through just to get my own place another time. I have two sisters, Natalie who is 19yrs old and Alexa who is almost 8yrs. old. Alexa has a different dad (she is the prettiest of us) who is a real assh*le but hey, you can't pick your parents right? My mom is a wonderful woman who was strong enough to raise me and Natalie even though we put here through made shit a few years ago (will expain another time). My dad lives a few blocks from my mother and has a Philipine wife. It is marriage of convienence. He really loves her but I think she uses him for her green card. She is still married in the Philipines and has like 4 kids who are all grown. My mom has a boyfriend who is good to her and helps her out alot. I don't have many friends by choice. What I mean is, I tend to get turned off my people who want to always be around me and throw all their bullshit on me. *Ya'll know who you are*.

When I was young I was in all the gifted programs until I hit 9th grade. That is when we moved to Staten Island NY. I chose to purposely forget alot of shit from that time in my life. I have a few good memories but overall it was all shit. I went form an A student to a drop-out in 11th grade. I eventually got my GED after alot of slacking off. I am now in a junior college and on the dean's list. I did a complete 180 and am now very focused on school.

I have been with my boyfriend for 41/2 years now. We were each other's first love and I don't think I can see myself without him. He IS my best friend, even though he can annoy the SHIT out of me. We met because my sister was good enough to be a pain in the ass one day and tell him that I thought he was cute. Well being the shy person he was, he asked me for my phone number and walked me home. He called me the next night and we were supposed to meet up on Valentines day (two days before my birthday). I didn't meet him and made a dumbass excuse. I was still a little player back then and didn't want to only fuck around with one guy. Well I finally met him a day after my birthday and we spent 6 hours in February at a park unti lmidnight. We talked about every damn thing there is to talk about. Life, religion, families, hopes, future...the end of the world. Well the next day we were boyfriend/girlfriend and the rest is stored in my memories. Ok ok enough with the mushy shit for now. I'll finish this later..I'm getting tired and my ass hurts from sitting here...

posted by Mizz Cillastar at 12:25 AM